Atop a table in our guest room is a hand-tinted photograph, taken in the summer of 1933.
The photo is of my grandparents, Burton and Judith Tate, and the first four of what would eventually become a brood of 14 grandchildren.
On my grandfather's lap is my cousin Robert, six months old. Robert grew up to be a computer specialist.
Grandma is holding another baby, my cousin Nancy. She grew up to be an R.N.
Kneeling in front of them is my six-year-old cousin Paul. Paul grew up to marry his childhood sweetheart and became an Army General.
Next to Paul is my cousin Jimmy, a boy of four.
Jimmy was killed in Korea when he was 21.
I wonder what he would have become?
Nancy, Paul and Jimmy were the children of my mother's sister, Margaret, a tiny wisp of a woman. In 1923, Margaret married a giant of a man, Pat Timmerberg, who stood six feet three inches tall. Pat's parents had immigrated to Missouri from Germany and settled on a farm near Mineola. When America entered World War I, Pat joined up and was shipped off to fight his own people in the fields of France. When he returned, he was a soldier through and through, who loved to sing war songs and tell war stories.
Margaret and Pat's oldest, Paul, joined the army in 1945, the year he graduated from Montgomery City High School, just in time for VJ Day. Like his father, Paul showed a natural aptitude for soldiering. He was selected for Officer Candidate School and, shortly thereafter, was a Second Lieutenant, on his way to earning his stars.
Jimmy, who graduated from high school in 1947, enlisted in the army the next year, when he was 19. After basic training, he was sent to Colorado, where he captained the 21st Engineer's basketball team. He was shipped to the Yukon for eight months, back to Colorado and, in August, 1950, to Korea, where he was a machine gunner with the 21st Infantry Regiment of the 24th Division.
Jimmy was killed in action near Changgong-Ni on April 28, 1951. His tour of duty was almost over.
When they received word of Jimmy's death, the Timmerbergs were preparing for Nancy's high school graduation. She had graduated first in her class, and was looking forward to giving the valedictorian's speech.
She went ahead and delivered it, though her heart was broken and the audience knew it.
In those days before jet planes, families often had to wait months for their loved ones to arrive home for burial. Jimmy's flag-draped casket arrived in Montgomery City on a Wabash train on November 20, and he was buried with full military honors. According to his obituary posted on cousin Robert's family web site, a quartet sang "In The Sweet By and By" and "Safe In The Arms of Jesus." A solo, "God Understands," was also performed.
My mother couldn't attend. She was in the hospital, having given birth to me three
days earlier.
We visited Aunt Margaret and Uncle Pat often when I was growing up. They were always full of news about Paul and Nancy and their growing families. But I was always aware of the presence of a third Timmerberg cousin -- a handsome dark-haired boy of 18 or so with a fixed broad smile, who peered from a gold oval frame on the dining room wall.
Of him, never a word was spoken.
Pat died in 1963 and Margaret, who lived alone, began spending a lot of time at our house with my mother. They spent hours discussing the family and events of the past. But they would never mention Jimmy. Every Memorial Day, my mother took Margaret, who never learned to drive, to the cemetery, and they would return looking grim.
As a teenager, I used to accuse Aunt Margaret of being a pessimist. She wasn't much fun to be around. She always seemed to look on the dark side, to expect the worst out of life.
I take it all back, Aunt Margaret.
Now that I have held my own sons in my arms and have seen them grow into young men with their own hopes and dreams, I understand.
And I want to tell you this: You were amazing. I don't know how you were able to go on, but you did. You even managed to laugh on occasion. I can't help but wonder if, every time you saw me, you were reminded of the son you buried the week I was born. I hope not, but I don't see how you couldn't have been.
Margaret died in 1988, and was laid to rest next to Jimmy and Pat, near my grandparents. My mother, now 99, made the trek to the cemetery every Memorial Day until a few years ago when she stopped driving.
Paul died in 2008 and was buried at Arlington in an impressive military ceremony with a
13-cannon salute befitting his rank. He was inducted into the Military Police Hall of Fame and there is a building named for him at Ft. Leonard Wood.
Mom talks often with the last of my Timmerberg cousins, Nancy, who, at 79, just had a knee replacement.
But nobody in our family ever speaks of Jimmy. I don't think those who knew him can. Though his headstone has faded, the horror of his loss never will, until the last person who loved him is gone. And there aren't that many of them left.
Many of my grandparents' 14 grandchildren accomplished great things. One became a math professor. One graduated from West Point, as did Paul's son, their great-grandson. The youngest, named for his cousin Jimmy, is president of a major music company. All of us married, most had children and grandchildren, and two are even great-grandparents.
Scattered from Connecticut to California, the ten of us who are left will celebrate Memorial Day. We'll enjoy the sunshine and picnics.
And I guarantee that all of us will remember the boy in the oval picture frame on Aunt Margaret's dining room wall, the boy who, unlike the rest of us, never grew old.
I hope that, whatever else you have planned, you will also take the time to remember Jimmy Timmerberg ... the hundreds of thousands of other young men and women who paid for our freedom with their lives ... and their parents, who buried the best of themselves with them.
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